hiatus...

wow.  7 years.  my last post was 7 years ago.

Ramon was 15 y/o, going through a deep depression.  never-ending meltdowns that i thought will never end. almost daily summons to school to get him for being disruptive.  one of the toughest periods in our lives.  i thought things will never be better for him.

7 years later, he's now in college, attending a community school, and hoping to transfer to a university.  my Ramon has hurdled a lot of challenges in his young life but he still has a long way to go.  he still has so much to learn, so much to overcome.

i sometimes feel inadequate as a mother, feeling like i'm failing him, and still second guessing my parenting skills.  i guess i will always feel this way.  it is so hard being a parent.

7 years ago, Hillary lost the primary to Obama, which was really a bummer.  she should have won.  she would have been a better president, in my opinion, if i may stress that out.  i know there are a lot of haters out there, but i love Hillary Clinton!  i believed in her then and i still believe in her now.

7 years later, lots of buzz of her running in 2016.  i hope she does.  i supported her then, and will support her again.  but lots of challenges ahead.  her haters are in overdrive.  i hope she and Chelsea won't fuel the fire, and be more careful in choosing their words especially when talking about debts, finances, etc...  that comment from Chelsea just made me cringed.  she sounded out of touch, which i know she's not.  so...  just be careful.

a lot going on...

R had another meltdown yesterday in school... a huge one... he will be off school for the rest of the week... his teachers are very supportive, and that helps so much.

during the last session he had with his therapist last monday, he finally agreed to see a psychiatrist, and is now open to taking medication for his depression. that is really a big turnaround for him... his therapist assessed him as being extremely depressed. unfortunately, the earliest schedule we can get for a psychiatrist is in january yet. but with the incident in school yesterday, i'm hoping that R's therapist would be able to get an earlier schedule for us. i'm sincerely hoping, and praying for it...

amidst all these, i'm working on a new project, and studying two prospects, but i'm having a hard dividing whatever is left of my time... no question who my priority is, though... on top of it all, there's the usual housework, which if i would be in the Philippines, is not something i would have to worry about, and will surely be taken care of in a snap... that still does not make me want to relocate... not in 20 years maybe...?

but the real bummer is the snow... it's not heavy but it also has not stopped coming down since i drove hubby to the "T" stop this morning. there should be, at least, 3" of snow on the ground right now... ugghhh... i have no choice but to shovel if i want to be able to drive out later to pick up hubby... but i also don't want to do it too early as i may have to shovel again before 6pm. it is just before 2pm right now so i'm looking at doing it an hour later...

in the meantime, i'll post this now and tinker with my new project while worrying about a million other things at the same time...

uhhhmmm...

i don't know what to write about...
i'll put down whatever comes to mind...

a curfew was declared in metro manila for one night due to another coup attempt... hohummm...
obama is now leading hillary in the iowa primary race... grrr...
snow is coming our way tonight... double grrr...
i'm not ready to pick up a shovel...

i'm in a state of emotional and mental distress...
i sometimes wonder how i am functioning at all...
i need someone to talk to...
i badly need someone who will not only listen but also someone who will be empathetic...

right now, i'm just trying to push it back and bury it...
i don't want to shed anymore tears...
i can't believe how lonely i am...

so many chores... so little time...

been busy... although i spend time on my computer, i am working... dividing my computer time between completing trades at FLR and rewriting PLRs for hubby. on top of that, i do have household chores, as some of you may already know as i talk about them quite a bit. so this will be short... i'm busy...

woohooo...!!!

monday night football

• it was muddy
• turf was bad
• weather was bad
• players struggled
• in the end, my Steelers won!
• jeff reed's field goal, 3-0...

dancing with the stars

• marie & jonathan were fan favorites; they ended in 3rd
• mel & maks are good, technically; they were ahead in points
• in the end, helio & julianne hoisted the coveted mirror ball!
• they got both technique & charisma...

woohooooooo!!!

oprah factor...???

oprah on a campaign blitz for obama in iowa...
my thoughts... (not yours nor theirs)

oprah = "a million little pieces" by james frey
oprah = dr.(but-not-board-certified) jan adams
oprah = sexual abuse scandal in the oprah winfrey leadership academy for girls
oprah = "the secret" by rhonda byrne

and now...

oprah = obama

add that to the top of the list...

laundry, laundy, and more laundry...

another busy day for me. only time i sat down in front of my computer before now was this morning after i drove hubby to the "T" stop. i only checked my email and sent to my cousin in germany, a link to 60 minutes' Eagles' interview. her hubby is a big Eagles fan. after that, i loaded the washer again, and continued my ironing while waiting for the first load to finish. i also changed and washed towels and sheets, and right now have comforters in both the washer and dryer. i have not done any PLRs, but i'm hoping to finish one later ~ maybe... after dancing with the stars... it's the finals!!! i'm rooting for helio castroneves and julianne to win.

i'll jump in the shower before i pick hubby up at 6:05pm so... later...