a lot going on...

R had another meltdown yesterday in school... a huge one... he will be off school for the rest of the week... his teachers are very supportive, and that helps so much.

during the last session he had with his therapist last monday, he finally agreed to see a psychiatrist, and is now open to taking medication for his depression. that is really a big turnaround for him... his therapist assessed him as being extremely depressed. unfortunately, the earliest schedule we can get for a psychiatrist is in january yet. but with the incident in school yesterday, i'm hoping that R's therapist would be able to get an earlier schedule for us. i'm sincerely hoping, and praying for it...

amidst all these, i'm working on a new project, and studying two prospects, but i'm having a hard dividing whatever is left of my time... no question who my priority is, though... on top of it all, there's the usual housework, which if i would be in the Philippines, is not something i would have to worry about, and will surely be taken care of in a snap... that still does not make me want to relocate... not in 20 years maybe...?

but the real bummer is the snow... it's not heavy but it also has not stopped coming down since i drove hubby to the "T" stop this morning. there should be, at least, 3" of snow on the ground right now... ugghhh... i have no choice but to shovel if i want to be able to drive out later to pick up hubby... but i also don't want to do it too early as i may have to shovel again before 6pm. it is just before 2pm right now so i'm looking at doing it an hour later...

in the meantime, i'll post this now and tinker with my new project while worrying about a million other things at the same time...

uhhhmmm...

i don't know what to write about...
i'll put down whatever comes to mind...

a curfew was declared in metro manila for one night due to another coup attempt... hohummm...
obama is now leading hillary in the iowa primary race... grrr...
snow is coming our way tonight... double grrr...
i'm not ready to pick up a shovel...

i'm in a state of emotional and mental distress...
i sometimes wonder how i am functioning at all...
i need someone to talk to...
i badly need someone who will not only listen but also someone who will be empathetic...

right now, i'm just trying to push it back and bury it...
i don't want to shed anymore tears...
i can't believe how lonely i am...