last night, as i was going to bed, i checked on my son again. i was surprised to see him sitting up in bed because we already said our goodnites half an hour ago.
his first day in school didn't really go as smoothly as i thought... he was frustrated with himself, for letting other kids bother him. my son's issues has everything to do with his inadequate social skills plus the fact that there are indeed bullies in school. i always tell him that he cannot let these kids bother him, to walk away when they try to start something, and report them to someone of authority. the school is very good in dealing with bullies, and educating kids about it.
my son knows all these but being a young teenager, he cannot help but be affected by it. his inadequate social skills also makes him question some kids' real intentions as he already got burned in the past. as a mother, i cannot help but be hurt and frustrated by it. a parent can only do so much for their child. and there are battles that you cannot fight for them, but still, these things hurt knowing how much it is affecting your child.
i told him he always has choices. the choice to let these kids affect him or the choice to stay focus, and do well in school to achieve his goals. i also reminded him that he has a support team who is always there for him. it's a good thing he has a session with his therapist next monday so i told him to discuss his apprehensions with him, and find ways to better handle his frustrations, stress, and trust issues.
after everything is said and done, i can only hope and pray.